I really didn't want to put up another devastating reflection of loss in love this week - with Seepeoples' mea culpa followed by Heddwen's unrequited longing - I was kinda hoping for something more morbid... and then I heard Natalie Migdal's voice.
This song just floors me - it's the vocal again - what she's doing - holding those long notes and keeping a true tone - that's insanely hard to do well and she just nails it. Yet the delivery is so gentle, so frail - there's an honesty in there that I can't help but connect with - and then you hear the lyric.
“All I have ever tried to do
Is make it right by you
I’ve spent every waking hour trying to find a way through to you, a way through to you
The problem is it’s all based on lies
that you fed me with for years
and I was desperately clinging on to you
what can I do
When all that I want is for you to come home
and to open the door and to see me like you’ve never done before
Suddenly your words don’t make sense and all the memories come to life
you always told me it was me
when all I needed was for you to say
that you’ll love me all the way
that you’ll stay by my side and that I’m the only one
I want you to say you were wrong
that you’re sorry for everything that you’ve done
I want you to love me, I want you to love me, please love me all the way home”
If you haven't been this one in a relationship - lucky you 'cos it's the most awful feeling in the world - loving someone and knowing they don't really love you back. And you know from the fairy tales that no matter what you do - you can't make someone love you.
I remember being here - I would listen to songs like this and just cry - that deep sobbing, stunted breathing, cathartic release of emotional pain.
I wish this track had been around then
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About the Curator - Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
Although I've always played, I haven't always been a musician. Most of my twenties were spent working with people, buying and selling and learning how the world works. It was in my thirties that I came to America and focused on music and began to develop music2work2.
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Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the Dark Forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top, they would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
As a psychology graduate I studied how sound affects human performance.
As a musician I compose instrumental music that stimulates your brain but doesn't mess with your language centers, leaving you free to be creative and brilliant without distraction.
As a curator I research how music can improve your life and create flow - I can tell you what music to listen to when studying for a test and why listening to sad music can make you feel better.
As a creator / contributor at musicto I’m part of a global creator community that collaborates through music. You can learn more about our community here.